how often it was yours

became ours

and now it’s back to me


how do I untie the threads we sewed into each other?

the stitches itch when I think of you,

bleed through the double knots 

did you ever drive back to the house out of habit?

familiar route on the tip of your nose,

tapping your fingers along the steering wheel 

as you cut back my seams 

threaded but fraying in your heart?


I fear I will spend the rest of my life 

missing what never became

what cannot return

what I don’t ever want to feel again 

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